Hello to all, Hello to myself,

Today has been a lazy Saturday…. which is different than a relaxing Saturday.  I worked a little in the morning.  And then I spent most of the day vegetating on my couch watching TV.  I felt depressed by my lack of engagement in my own life.  I know that I have a wonderful family, including my wife and three young children, waiting at the drop of a hat to actively enjoy shared time with me.  Yet, I opted for the weaker path of resistance to do (whatever), resistance to be (whatever).

Even in my lethargic state, I was mindful of the decision and mindful of the missed opportunity of being fully present in my life.  I don’t know if there is any value in the realization of action or, in my case, inaction.  It is almost more insulting.  If you don’t know that you are missing an opportunity to do something greater, then you cannot reasonably be held accountable for your inaction.  It is like the saying ‘Ignorance is Bliss’.  But, when you are aware… when you are conscious of the time, the moment, and the opportunities before you… and you chose not to engage then you cannot claim ignorance.

Well, I feel a sense of shame and guilt.  However, I don’t want to dwell in that space of lacking.  I hope to allow my awareness to bring me into action.  I don’t want to miss a moment… at least not when I can chose to engage.

Thank you for being, Michael.